我的命运 ， 我作主 ?

finally......

Finally I've told somebody about who was that I mentioned before. =(

I don't want to bad mouth about that people.

It's real!

Just.........

luckily that people who knew that also not very close to her.

I slept at 1 sumthing again!!!

I can't stop myself to sleep in the late midnight everyday.

why why why why??

Anyone can help me??

I felt lonely last night.

Frankly, I don't like that kind of feeling.

I lost something. ~

Something that already accompanied me for quite a long time.

I lost something. ~

Something that be with me for already 1 year or more? , everday and every second.

I hate to be lonely.

unlike unlike unlike unlike unlike unlike

I'm forcing myself to sleep earlier.......

but, I'll think about some of the nonsense things when I'm lying on the bed.

But sometimes, my face was lit up with joy.

^

^

^

^

[ ki siao soon ]

=8

moral moral moral

Kepercayaan kepada tuhan
- keyakinan wujudnya tuhan sebagai pencipta alam dan mematuhi segala suruhanNya berlandaskan pegangan agama masing-masing selaras degan prinsip rukun negara.

amanah
- sikap bertanggungjawab yang boleh menimbulkan kepercayaan dan keyakinan orang lain.

harga diri
- keupayaan dan keyakinan diri agar mampu memulia dan menjaga maruah diri dalam kehidupan.

bertanggungjawab
- kesanggupan diri seseorang untuk memikul dan melaksanakan tugas serta kewajipan degan sempurna.

hemah tinggi
- beradap sopan dan berbudi pekerti mulia dalam pergaulan seharian.

toleransi
- kesanggupan bertolak ansur, sabar dan mengawalk diri bagi mengelakkan pertelingkahan dan perselisihan faham demi kesejahteraan hidup.

berdikari
- kebolehan dan kesanggupan melakukan sesuatu tanpa bergantung kepada orang lain.

kerajinan
- usaha yang berterusan penuh degan semangat ketekunan, kecekalan, kegigihan, dedikasi dan berdaya maju dalam melakukan sesuatu perkara.

kasih sayang
- kepekaan dan perasaan cinta yang mendalam serta berkekalan yang lahir daripada hati yang ikhlas.

keadilan
- tindakan dan keputusan yang saksama serta tidak berat sebelah.

rasional
- boleh berfikir berdasarkan alasan dan bukti yang nyata dan dapat mengambil tindakan berasaskan pertimbangan yang wajar.

kesederhanaan
- bersikap tidak keterlaluan dalam membuat pertimbangan dan tindakan sama ada dalam pemikiran, pertuturan atau perlakuan tanpa mengabaikan kepentingan diri dan orang lain.

~ Secret Recipe ~

I ate this @@
cappuccino cheese ~ =)

I request my mum to bring me to secret recipe for "hi-tea"...
yesterday 27/11 , around 3 sumthing? (i frgt d...)




I ordered this for my mummy =D
butterscotch ~ 

I followed her back to kulim square.

I looked over my old photo album there.

All my "ginna ginna" face inside that....

My fatty look! haha ~

I've stolen one of it to keep inside my purse.

(will be uploaded the picture if the scanner is fine ><)

We went for dinner at 7.45pm at lunas....

Their western food's plan had changed to thai food~ The store was closed on saturday.

I arrived home at 9pm..

I'm advised by grandma to finish the "泡参" before I sleep.

I finished that fastly. =D

happy =)

thanks to my cuttie grandma ~

❤

I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you
 
I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you
 
I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you

I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you
 
I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you

I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you
 
I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you
 
I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you
 
I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you
 
I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you

I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you
 
I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you
 
I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you

I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you
 
I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you  I ❤  you

Just to say ~ I'm "mouliu" leh ~
JUST FOR FUN =]

I don't want myself suffer from sick.
Hence, I suddenly request Voon Hwa to have a jog. =)
It's nice...  we ride bicycle after we came back from our jog.. ❤
Relaxing myself ~

I went to eat laksa today too!!! haha~
great~ but sorry~ KS's car..........
she "garek" her car just now!
erm.. erm.. erm...... ~
Be careful larh next time ~
lalala ~ lalala ~ lalala ~ lalala ~
Sad to say, I'm unlucky! =(
I suffered from flu and throat pain one day before the SPM ~ 22/11
arghhh..... bo huat~ I had a visit to the clinic and some medicines are given by the doctor...
wuwuwu =(
Yesterday someone fell sick.... fever =$
sakit hati!!!!! but I'm actually quite happy larh yesterday night because I felt angry and down during the noon~ wahaha ❤


I'm "kongkam" today!!!
I've to stop myself!! =)
lalala ~ stop here luh~
GooD Luck to every SPM candidates!!

thank "you"

Frankly, I'm angry and also quite disappointing with you.

thank "you"!

the word "you" is referring to someone...

I don't want to mention who is the person I mentioned to.

It's because I'm not here to break that person image.

I'm just here to express what mood I'm having now!! 

Also, I'm not the only one who realise that you're having such 'good' attitude.

Or maybe, it is just happening on me from you but not the others.

(maybe maybe maybe maybe maybe)

Obviously, my suspicion was over halfly proven right!

You'll not to do anything that never comes any benifits to yourself.

Besides, you'll try to get some ways and ideas from others without being noticed if you are getting know that others are having a little bit higher in marks better than you.

Everything you did purposely is to make yourself better.

You're selfish.

If I'm not mistaken, you're also trying to compete with ___ silently. 

Also, I don't know that you're a person who are real or fake.

Is this a real friendship???

Sometimes, I feel you are real.

Sometimes, I feel you fake.

sometimes it's quite annoying for me to interact with a fake person.

not sometimes , but MOSTLY.

Please, many things happened to you since you're in form4.

No one knows that what you said before is real or...?

I'm also one of the victim right?

What you told us before isn't real?

But it's okay.. I've forgotten that quite a long time.

Someone spoke of that matter and I just remembered it that day.

nvm.......all of that already past.

I hope that you're not really that bad.

But you really spoil my mood recently.

If you treat me good and a real friend , I'll also do the same with what you did.

Sincerely to say, Congratulations.

anti-生病 =X

21 nov10 ------------- 阴

最近的我 是热气吗

常觉得头痛什么的

人很累 身体好像刚打完架散掉了这样

不可以在这时候生病啦

我已经连大便都不空了吖! =x

是天气在作怪 也是我常夜夜睡

我是很想早睡 可是···· 就偏偏不能睡

拖啊拖 每晚就是两三点 昨晚更离谱 (4点 =$)

那天我竟然没睡到，seminar 也不爱睡

Am I crazy ???

我死定了 此时此刻 我真的突然感到很压力

一个字可以形容------- [ 惨!! ]

两个字来形容的话那就是------[ 很惨!! ]

晚上静静地 我就发作了

开始想那些有的没有的

啊!!! 我快疯了

T^T 拜托老天爷不要一直下雨好吗···

我没时间应付我那讨厌的鼻子 ~

严重起来就弄到我生病了

----读书---读书---读书---读书---读书---读书---读书--- 

怎样完蛋法还是要读 不读就会是更加完蛋

( 语病很多的句子 )

后天就是SPM!!! 听到都可怕!!!

周诗敏!!! 你要加油!!!
机会真的只有一次 我尝试也总好过我直接放弃
尝试了至少我还有一点希望
如果我还没尝试就直接放弃，我将会是一无所有，什么希望都没有

insomnia

Yesterday night, daddy brought me to a malay store to have my supper when we were on the way back home. Just a normal nasi lemak economy took us half an hour waiting there.

Also, I had a cup of teh tarik while waiting for the food to serve.

teh tarik.... teh tarik..... teh tarik..... teh tarik.........

It caused me to suffer from insomnia. ='(

OMG!!

I started to go to bed around 1a.m..

However, I woke up not only thrice but again and again I opened and closed the door, walked in and out the room. Here's a new panda born. =8

Finally, my grandma's alarm on her mobile phone rung!

6.00am

wuhoo, I'm still "fresh" . I sat there and looked at her. She got shocked and looked at me. haha

funny ~

She went for jogging and I switched on the TV as I'm lazy to go with her.

Here to say sorry for those who received my messages early in the morning. wahaha

I'm really free and nothing to do.. haha

I sent a message to Yi Ting, asking her for breakfast. (still early =.= but I'm really bored! )

She then brought me for breakfast at 9.30am.

nasi lemak at seroja~ The place that I didn't go for quite a long time.

Another 2 more seminars to go later.

I hope that I won't feel sleepy there. haha.

>>> 3.00pm-6.00pm & 6.30pm-9.00pm <<<  =目

lalala~ It's time to study now. GooD luck to me :)

How annoying ='(

Suffering!!! stomachache..... arghh ='(
How annoying it is! I hate this!! Please leave me now!! please~
However, I can't do anything about it. T^T
Can I know why I'm having stomachache now???
I don't know why!!
I didn't suffer from hunger today!! wth
breakfast > lunch > hi-tea > dinner (with only mushroom soup)

As my aunt and her 3 little children are now at home (......),
I follow my dad to club and studying at the library.

Few days later!!!! SPM begins!!!

Today, I went to library, oldtown and then to seminar.
Quite tired la weiii~
Another seminar for tomorrow. huhu~
I MUST!! finish my form4 sejarah today..

hmp, going to stop here~

**A post without ending =.=**

gooD luck to ME



不知道该说我幸运还是······什么?

竟然竟然竟然~ 我的天啊 我的座位

就就就在第一位~ 在考官的前面咯····· 就是这样准

准到我也没话说~ 我和那大大又令人紧张的桌子~ 距离只差1cm~ 没错

我刚才没看到我的位之前还笑不停~

再发现自己的位子时，我尖叫了一声，

喊着我不要那个位子~啊啊啊啊

哎哎哎~ 改变不了的事实···

唯有接受咯~ 我希望那考官不凶啦，不然我真的很紧张的叻~      =目

天啊天 ~

考官啊考官 ~

我看你 你看我

额~ 那就祝我好运啦蛤 = )

stressed OUT

I'm really unhappy now!
I'm under stress!
I don't like anyone around me scold me without any reason.
sorry to say that, I can't bear this!

May well to say that, if someone is scolding with any suitable and acceptable reasons,
I might , or to say I'll accept that and think it out and even think over it.

frankly, haiss, I'm down down down down down. =(
Can someone cheer me up? [I mean now]
I'm trying to console myself ~ @@"
consoling myself...with........chocolate??
I'm forcing myself to study biology now~ 
[but I prefer sej to bio...] << kiampak?!

Glad to say, I'm happy yesterday night though I slept at 2am+ and woke up at 6am~
Thank you for giving me the chance to tell what I wanted to tell.
It seems like a good and nice appearance for us.

Friends, take care...
Tomorrow will be the last day for us to sit and play with each other in the class.
The day we receive our class shirt...
The next day we meet each other will be on 23nov. SPM!!!
Appreciate all the time together with my classmates my friends... miss ya ~
keep in touch with everyone but not to forget anyone.
Let's party after exam laaa (don't frgt that especially for those who had paid for that)
good luck to all of us. 5sc2~

心病终须心药医，解铃还是系铃人

话说得一点都没错···· 我指你们····
一个···两个···三个···· 不管几个，知道的都会回答我一样的答案 ( 你吃醋 )

这也不是什么···因为那些是过去····
最近的我，感触还真多···我开始勇敢地表达我自己的想法
因为我知道，唯有我自己才能掌控我自己的命运···

我不能强求些什么，
是我的那东西就是我的，
不是我的，我不可偷不可抢，
我要是想得到，我得靠自己赚钱，再把那东西买回来，那个东西才是我的，
那东西才属于我自己的~···

再不然，请我自己想都别想要，无需花时间在那里想有的没的，假如那是我的会怎样怎样，不是我的又会怎样怎样，什么办法能得到那东西等等····
难听点说，
不用浪费时间发白日梦····
倒不如实际点，
以最正当的方法，以自己的能力，来把那东西做为属于自己的东西···

因为这样··我开始看开了一些事··
做人没有谁对不起谁··只有对不对得起自己···
要是我做了一件事，我问心无愧，我对得起自己的良心，
那我就是对得起我自己··
我没有对不起谁，因为人活着是为了自己而活，不是为别人而活。

虽然我会这样想··但有时我还是会有胡思乱想的时候··
难免的时候···不过我如今只允许自己有那么的一下下··
学习着···

心病终须心药医，解铃还是系铃人··
理智面对自己的处境及周遭事物··
我真的开始学习着··
我想，我应该可以办得到

谢谢你，你，你，你，你
因为你，你，你，你，你，让我真的学会了很多成长了很多~

12nov 2010 ❤

I request my lovely daddy to bring me out to penang tomorrow.
Yet, my purpose going there is to pray. (first time i made this kind of request)
Surprisely, he consented my request fastly.
He wanted to bring me there today but not tomorrow.
I was shocked and happy.  Get ready to wash up myself in a very very short time.


After praying, he brought me to prangin mall to have a quick shop.
He was on the way to another place to pray. (I don't know where is it)
hahaha~ I bought a new thing again... happy!!


Soon, we went to penang road to have laksa.
Quite disappointing, laksa has sold out. =(
we went to another place for makan!


Unluckily, we met a heavy traffic jam on the bridge when we are on the way back to kulim.
ARGH!!! [betul betul siennnnn laaaaa] 
We used up more than 1 hour there I think
wasting time there.
We finally arrived home at 9o'clock.


Thanks DADDY   ❤
thank you for consented my request but not refused me.
("going to bankrap" , said daddy) haha

SiaSuii ?

Frank to say, I'm "siasuiii" today.
Why??
As lots of my friends knew that, I've fallen down at school.
It was the time when we ended our class.
Everyone was walking towards to door and I ~~~~
hmp, just on the way back to my sit and have a look at the drawer.......

 *****MANATAU!!!!******

=,= yerr, quite "Siasuii" larh.
Everyone laugh at me =(
[ I'm also laughing at myself actually , wakaka ]
 ~ S H Y ~ haha..
Without exception, my daddy was laughing me too.
"Do you look like 'potato' when the moment you fell down? " , said daddy.
A L A M A K

我 不是 s t r a w b e r r y ~

这张只是刚刚随便拍而已···有够肥 > <
面包脸

哎哟 ~
我昨天剪了头发啦 ~
我朋友看到我就是：你"又"剪啊 =.="

然后叻 ~ 就被他们叫做strawberry
竟然讲我像 s t r a w b e r r y ~
还叫我改名叫strawberry chew =$ (晕倒)
气死我 laa

今天几不正常的在学校~
笑笑笑 笑到傻 ··

最近常失眠 ------->>>>>(看我眼睛就知道)
可是我真的累想睡觉的··· 它自己不能睡!!

38.7kg 料!!!!!
超爱吃的最近 惨了

HappY daY ❤



She refused to let me capture this !!!



My leng leng AmiiiYuaN =D

she drove my out today ~ muackss.... :-*

 

 

嘿嘿···

今天在学校··不懂何时何分何秒··决定了去慧家~

然后呢···就说我的"咪"来载我喽~ （原以为去不成的）哈哈

回到家···睡了一下下···然后咪四点这样来载我~

我没接到她电话><" 她到了我家我才知道

我们两个就去了慧家meet她们

葶放学就直接回慧家了~

又是我们四个拉^^ 在慧家一下子后变又出去了~

吃东西 肚子饿 哈哈




 nah nah nah ~ on the waY to GIANT =.="
( me and AmiiiiYuan ) captured by miss TONG!!!
actually no where special for us to go larh ~



我们都忙着劝慧~ 

不要她再哭了>.<"

不要她哭料

在学校哭够了

 就当作我们带她去happy 下咯~

 哈哈 

我们在那边真的笑到肚子痛~

 很开心  呵呵


做傻偷新车?? (发梦就有拉)











那包东西!!!我很喜欢~它那个味道~是花干??还是干花??
呵呵 忘记料=.="





 

                                                                    







  还有其他照片···以后再upload =D

hehe xD

我们的回忆 ^^ forever besties =)
过后amiiYuaN载我们回家料···下大雨···
大概六点多七点咯···
 miss amiiiYuaN's parking skills ~~~~~~ superb "GOOD"!!!!!!
笑死为了要park一辆车  咳~ 她们三个都考车了~ 剩我 T^T
勇敢!!技术"赞"!! ---[她看到肯定骂死我]

还有一件事，有一个人不用去KL 料 ~咔咔

gooD larh~  haha~



什么天气···· 什么心情 ?

天阴阴? ? ?

不知道怎么，今天的心情就好像···· high 不起来那种感觉

昨晚去了萍家过夜···蛮突然的

可是现在的我，头很痛!!!

不知道为什么，最近总是头痛···

我不够睡吗? ? [  没有~ ]

用电脑? ? [ 不可能，我最近都开一下而已，真的很一下]

电话? ? 也不可能，少用很多很多了··

可是我不知道为什么为什么为什么!!!!

头还是隐隐作痛 ~ 咳!

求求"你",快快离我而去  please

把我现在做着AM的心情都搞砸了 我很pek啊!!

今天，终于都给了妈咪向我讨了已久的东西··

惊讶地说···她向我要我facebook的password ><“

说帮我玩game~ 她自己有acc, 弟弟的password也有,连我的她也要

hou sai leii ~

希望等下头不要痛了···真的很烦人 ~

6-nov 10

yes!! I did it!!
saturday (means today larh =.=)
everyone has went out.
mummy & didi went to on9? grandma & gor went to visit cousin?
hmp, and also my daddy ~ [ buT I don't know where he went to ]


wuhoo~ MY DAY     MY WORLD  
no one disturbing me, may well say so, I can do whatever I WANT!!!
firstly, i felt bored at the time.
I started to take out my books from the "hill" ~
well, I started to do my revision, I ignored myself to switch on the TV.
I seized the opportunity to study under a comfortable and quiet condition.


********1 hour 2 hours 3 hours********time pass***********
Surprisely, I walked to the kitchen and try to fry some nuggets.
I was in a flurry!!!! at last, I fried 2 nuggets for myself. [ yea, just "2" =.=" ]
Obviously, I don't have this kind of talent~ hahaha XD


based on above, what I did??
Actually, I've did what i've promised to myself yesterdaY night.
I promised myself to use up all my time during the noon to study.
hehex, quite happy because I'm not lazy today ~


Besides, here to say "gambateh" to "YOU" too.
May god bless me and you ~
you may success if you're willing to TRY.


Here to end my post today ~ hehex
ALL THE BEST to me~  haha  

i'm back =D

Unknowingly, I've left here for a few months. [not even sign in]
something has changed my mind, and I..... hmp~
I'm under influence to update my blog recently..
I started to feel nice with it and to write out my feelin' here ~
------- ------- ------- ------- -------


To be frank, I'm not happy now
I tried to control myself but I failed to do so~ argh!!! stop saying that please
I need to concentrate on my study.
SPM is approaching~ why sometimes i'm still not in the mood to study~!!
appreciate the time left.
[praying hardly] ---" everything may go smoothly "~


5-nov 10