11 jan 2010...

i'm not happy today...
many things happen....
i'm really tired all this while!!!!
i hate it..
hate this feeling...
busy everyday...
so stressful..
homework?? bsmm???
hais!!
the earliest night that i slept was yesterday...
i think around 11pm or 12am..
tired tired tired...

1 week = 7days
everydays.... everdays i need to wake up early in the morning..
sunday to thursday need to go to skul..
friday morning tuition...
and saturday for co-curiculum...

sports day is coming soon..
need to learn new marching style..
so need to spend more time to school to learn all this from the jurulatih...
haisss........

2010 is the most busy year for me!!
spm and bsmm!!!
i need to work harder..
i just left only half year for having bsmm activities life...
since we bcum ajk, mr lau changed all things..
this was the first year for scout and bsmm in chio min...
need to have cert from negeri or daerah only we can continue our job..
feb is coming!! the result will come out on feb..
i wish 9 of us gud luck!! ><

wish me can stay away from all those sad things... exspecially with him
i don't want to cry everyday everynight...
please...
i will try my best to overcome all this

敏过的十二月..........

12月的我....
好像都过得很充实....happy^^
很久没写了咯~~
我也比较少上网~~
就先从mummy生日时说起吧...

12dec & 13 dec 2009
-i changed my hairstyle..
i had cut my hair become short...
after a few days... i uploaded new photo in msn...
all my frens get shocked when saw that...
keep on asking me why i cut my haor becum short...
=.="

-at night... daddy brought me, mummy and didi went to black canyon for celebrating mummy's bday... daddy will not around with us the next day(14dec).. mum's bday is on (14dec)..
i dont knw what is mummy's feeling... but i knw... she had a little bit angry and dissapointed..
daddy was going out with his friend... he had forgotten the next day is mummy's bday...
i get shocked when siao gu informed me dad is going out next day..
mummy: dont angry larr.. at least he brought u out for a dinner before he went out...

14dec 2009
- v went to E&O hotel again... having buffet lunch lor..
v went for shopping also... heheh...
mummy brought us to penang... she was having a nice mood that day...
heheh... when mummy was ready for paying the bill, she told the waiter saying that im just a child... so half price lorr... walauuuu... qian wen== as she is younger than me 3 years old..
but her price is 45++... dunnoe i should be happy or be sad.. haha

- go shopping..
first: {young hearts} wuhoo!! mummy bought me new 1... hehe...
second: {estee lauder} mummy alrd spend 300++ there.. but not for me :(
total up... not included extra fees.. mummy alrd spend 500++ on that day...
i wish to shopping again v mum when she is having a nice mood!! wahaha...

17dec 2009 -- 20dec 2009
-going to fayu camp lorr..
还蛮开心的..可是有时发生了有点点我不开心的事....
是真的失望!!我很痛心!!
but it's over...... let it be............
害我有时偷偷掉了几点眼泪~~~
那三天过得好快....不错啦~~first time^^
有几不错的回忆....

21dec 2009
-收拾到很夜......
隔天去营咯........
**期待~~~~~**

22dec 2009-23dec 2009
-在营阿....有时几闷下的咯...
可是看到的first aid比赛..真的几geng一下....
不错~~^^
跟佳莹他们& krian scout那些的有时还几癫一下的~~
23晚上...来了两个豪~~~
我们都好闷阿!!high不起来....结果.......
chio min RC TL & ATL 还哭了...
有点丑丑羞羞.....应该没人看到吧....
很烦!! panic 咯~~~~
跟你....也算是有不错的回忆吧???

24dec2009
-早上我从SP回来....累哦~~
收拾好东西什么...就跟HJ, KS, YT, WL去countdown了...
去gurney..先去sushi king....
过后走走...又去starbucks.....
还看到恶心的东西...haha...
KK YT 和我都有同样的表情....
很癫!! 3am 到家....
有点傻~~~~
我6点才睡~~~真的是~~~~~~~
有个难忘的圣诞节和平安夜~~~

好像也几可怜PMR考生.....
24号拿成绩.....result no gud都没心过圣诞了咯......
不过没关系拉.....大家SPM加油~~!!
照片迟些再放上来.....

hehe^^

me....???

我???
我到底怎么了??
我这几天好像又没什么理到你...
好像没顾到你的感受....
允许我再说 sOrRy....

我的电话被送进院了...
我很惨耶~~还要等......哎~~~
衰yo~~
好像有很多东西都解释不到....
不是我不要回你~~
不是我不给你信息我~~
我真的不懂怎样解释...
我知道,你肯定有想..我们之间又出了什么问题呢??
难道你又做错??
没有...真的没有...
我好希望我能解释出给你听为什么...
可是我真的不知道我该怎么说...
请你相信我...

SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY
SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY

你有你的东西烦...而我却帮不到你什么...
有时我真的不懂怎样回答你...
会好像没话讲...
我真的没有任何意见~~~
sorry

希望你能尽快解决吧
我真的帮不上忙.......

10dec 2009

好像好几天没写喽...
那天(8dec) 去到ipoh...店竟然没开耶~~
哈哈~~
可是这几天好像都不怎么开心...去的前一晚还被骂..
lalala....
最讨厌听到的:"你是女生阿!"
what???!!现在什么年代了??怎么都赖到我头上来...
全部都一样~!!知道的不知道的都说...
冤枉我

难免有时真的很想离开这里...不喜欢这种感觉...
有时往往我回去想开心的东西去忘记掉...可是你们一次又一次这样...
是谁都不能顶喽~
现在我心想的是: 其实现在我并没有当初我想象的快乐...没有想像得那么开心~
真的~~世界变了....
我们全部会这样带着遗憾而离开吗??
全部事情都好像很出乎意料...
有时真的有点痛心...有点心酸..
我受不了你们那样...我会疯!!

2009年好像是我最不开心的一年...
可能也开始慢慢长大了吧...有时会想多多...
好怀念从前~~
你们不了解....用嘴巴说那当然容易....
好咯~~~这些都不说了...
我希望我还剩下的21天都能好好过..
毕竟我这几个月真的是留了太多的泪....
我希望我的11,12,13............,30,31日都能过得比现在开心...
我不想再过伤心的生活....
我已经很尽力很乐观地去面对...
我也需要些时间.....
我真的不想再继续这样下去....


wish me happy~~~ =)

7dec 2009

haha.. today i'm so happy..

baapaa他今天带了我们去槟城...

我们的行程是 island hospital >>> E&O hotel >>> sunway carnival

去医院是那要给mamaah...

then....还早咯~~

我们到E&O hotel时buffet lunch都还没开始....

我们好饿~~~早上都没吃到..
所以说去那里可以是吃brunch loh... hahax
还有时间...我们就走走...走到很远...

我们的第一次~~哈哈....

"走"槟城

真的很开心啊...

很轻松的感觉....

他带我们来这里吃...我们请他去看戏...

8dec 就是他的生日~~

我们在那里也吃了他的百多块哦.....
adult 45++
child 22.5++

hehe~~^^

我们就请他去看2012咯...

虽然alvin和我看过了....可是他还没看啊....就去咯~~haha

sorry.....

sorry....
这是我现在真的很想对你说的话~~
每当你跟我说对不起...我就只会回答你说: no need...
可是真得除了这个...我真得不懂还能说些什么...

对,说的也是...
我真的不明白...
我真的不懂...
我真的也帮不上什么忙...

有时候..我也是会一样那样说你...
你不懂的啦...这样...
最近都发生了那么多事...我真的没有一样是帮得上忙得耶~~
好对不起~~

还有..真的不是像你说的那样..
我不是每次要拒绝你当你叫我出去的时候...
而我又好像每次跟他们出去得很容易..
真得不是那样....
你还说:你今晚叫我出是自己拿来衰~~让自己难堪什么的..
真的没有这样....

请你别乱想....
对不起~~

4dec 2009

今天呢....
我有一个人在家了哦...
我也很迟才起床...
弟弟跟daddy去SP了咯~~
剩我~~我才不去呢...
闷死了~~~
我都好闷耶~~
不懂怎样办~~
又不能出去~~
siennn....
救命啊~~~可能叻~
下星期二会下IPOH....
daddy说，他想吃芽菜鸡..
我听了都傻耶~~无言~~

昨晚我又跟弟弟看戏看到近三点(如果没记错...)
这几天都这样耶~~
最惊讶的事~~那天我弟弟还跟我说了他的秘密~~
笑到我快翻了~~~有人追他~~哈哈哈!!!
他都很怕我讲出来~可是真得很好笑嘛....
我还有那个女生的照片耶~.~"......

我好像念婆婆~~这次他们回来还有多两个小的也跟...
加买弟弟就有5个了咯...天啊~~
家里有变回热闹了...看着他们...我就想回以前的自己....
自己也不小了耶~~可是为什么我还是好像很爱哭??

昨天呢...我忍住不发脾气...那里懂他又一只说他pekchek...
动不动也有凶起来...
以前的他,是这样的吗???
我现在真的想不起...我不懂会不会就这样忘记了全部东西..
可是到了最后...我还是发了脾气...
我真的不能忍~!!

昨晚在tambun时KK就告诉我他在家..
就是那个时候还我被骂...
我很不爽耶...
那时候他也不在跟我聊...
我把东西告诉他他也没回我...
过后就去了k.club下下咯...我就吵要回家了...

haiz....我好闷!!!我要出去啦.....=(